I just read another article from the website "Christian Woman Today", though this time I won’t put the article up in my entry but if you would like to read it I would encourage you to read it! This article was an encouragement to me but some of the things she wrote really hit me because I could totally relate to it!
"But God showed me that He picked me because of my inadequacies and my willingness to be used."
"He guided me to His words in Psalm 34:18: "The Lord is close to the broken hearted. He rescues those who are crushed in spirit." I lost sight of the fact that every pain or problem we experience is a character-building opportunity to increase our faith."
"I see now that God was molding me, changing me. He was strengthening my character in order to be strong in Him and for Him. James 1:2 reaffirmed this truth to me: "Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of any kind, because you know the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything."
"It is not my own strength that gets me through life’s adversities, but God’s. I don’t have to rely on myself. I have all I need through Christ. Because of my willingness, I had been given greater insight into God’s plan and desires for me."
I am so glad I came across this article, I think it was just what I needed! I wanted to post it up on my site because maybe it could also be an encouragement for you too! Today at work I had such a good day with the kids, especially with my beginner class! I had a great time with the kids, we sang songs and played games! One of the boys in my class usually misbehaves but today he was so good. I told him today at the end of class that he was a very good boy today and he looked at me with a big smile on his face and said "thank-you teacher". It just blesses my heart so much to work with these kids and to teach them English!
When I think about times like these I feel a deep hurt in my heart that I was let go from my job. I took a huge step of faith coming to Korea, stepping out of many fears but what I desired more then anything was to be obedient to God no matter what the end result would be. My passion and love is to work with the children and also to teach English. Over the years God has given me a deeper love and compassion for not only the children but also the hurting and abandoned ones.
Today I also posted two entries from the site Christian Woman Today about confidence. Confidence is something that I have struggled with for years. Maybe God brought me here to Korea to not only develop my teaching skills and independence but to develop a deeper relationship with Him and also to develop my character in Him. Will these painful experiences that I have had here help me to grow or will it just push me further from my heavenly Father? I think it is up to me. I can allow God to prune and mold me during this time being here or I can run away from Him. My heart longs for God who has called and set me apart for His purpose for my life. For it’s not about me about me but ulimately about Him.
I believe in order for me to allow God to to be that potter in my life or anyone’s life we need to give God full permission to do so. I am trying to learn that everyday. It’s not always easy but it’s worth it all in the end! Have you given God that full permission to be that potter in your life?
Thank-you for your words of encouragement and prayers! I really appreciate far more then what I could possibility put into words how much you mean to me. Many times I felt down and discouraged but when I checked my e-mail I often received an encouraging e-mail to lift me up! Thanks also for holding me up in your prayers!
Information on this article:
The article is called "Obedient to God: Whose Story Is This?"
By Irene Barnes.
The link is: http://www.christianwomentoday.com/growth/irene.html