I had a great morning at church and I’m so thankful that I understood more of the sermon too! I really praise God that He is helping me understand more of the language every day. Unfortunately I felt a bit frustrated and disappointed with myself at my small group when I went to church in the evening. I haven’t been to my small group in a couple of months or since my small group leader Carmen got back because it had been so busy during the summer months. I was glad to go to my small group tonight but when Carmen told us that we’d be doing personal evaluation tests and I took a look at them I felt a bit overwhelmed of the amount of Romanian that I don’t know. I have been really studying and learning a lot of Romanian since I moved here but in the personal evaluation tests there was just way too many words I didn’t know so I just couldn’t do it and I felt bored and left out during the time I was there. Another thing throughout the evening at my small group I also didn’t understand much during the evening because everyone spoke very fast so I felt frustrated and discouraged from that too.
On the tram ride home today my friend Stefan told me that I shouldn’t get so easily discouraged with my Romanian, that I shouldn’t give up so easy or be so hard on myself. He also told me that I should think more positively and not say things like “oh, it’s too hard” but instead to encourage myself every day. He is right. I am way too hard on myself. To be honest learning a foreign language is difficult but God’s word does say in Philippians 4:13 that we can do all things through Christ who strengths us. I can’t give up but I have to keep pressing on. I need to remind myself what God is daily doing in my life and to encourage myself just like David did in the Psalms. I know that tomorrow will be a better day!