I can’t believe one month from today I started my quiet time with God at 6:00am! I didn’t know I could do it but praise God for giving me the strength to get up in the mornings. It hasn’t been easily but God has definitely given me new joy in spending time with Him in prayer and in His word. I desire to continue to grow in Him every day!
This morning I took Andreea to my church. It was a great service. At my quiet time I felt so disappointed that my battery ran out on my i pod so I couldn’t listen and sing worship music on there. When we entered into worship at church my heart was so ready to sing praises to God!
I asked my friend Stefan if there was a program for Andreea to go to when we were at church during the sermon time, he told me there was so he went with her to the classroom. I was very surprised when I saw Andreea walk back downstairs with Calin (he’s the Children’s Pastor) less than 15 minutes later and she sat with him at the front the rest of the sermon. I felt so bad! After the service I spoke to Calin and found out usually there is a program for her age group but today there wasn’t. Thankfully Andreea wasn’t upset at me and she enjoyed my church.
After church Andreea and I went to the Lotus mall for lunch before I took her back to the orphanage. It was nice to have one more meal with her before she went back. Andreea told me that she would like to go to my church again next week. I was surprised to hear that because she already has a church that she regularly goes to with some of the orphan kids and it’s also near the orphanage too. I told her that she is welcome to come to my church when she spends a night at my place but on a regular basis it is better for her to go to church with her friends. After lunch I took her back to the orphanage and we said good-bye.
I took the taxi home after I dropped Andreea home. I spoke in Romanian with the driver the whole way home and I felt encouraged when he told me that I speak very well. Then I was surprised when he handed me his phone and wanted me to speak to his daughter in English because she knows English! How awkward but I had a short conversation with her anyway!
When I got home I felt relieved that it was just Minnie and I because the last three weeks Meg was with us and then Andreea spent two nights with me. I love spending time with people, getting to know them and I miss living with people as I did when I lived in Târgu Mures. I would love to live with someone else here in Oradea but if I do now I know that I definitely need my own room because everyone needs their own space sometimes. It’s nice to just enjoy being alone with my cat again too and I think she likes it this way too. 🙂
The rest of the day I stayed home. I did my laundry, worked on my blog and I also watched to an online church service. This was my second week that I took time to watch the online church service by “Live Church TV” and I really liked it a lot. The church is going through an “I Quit” series. Today’s message was called “I quit living in fear”. It was a great sermon and a challenging one! One of the things that the Pastor said that really stuck with me is when he said “What your fear reveals is what you value the most and what you fear reveals where you trust God the least”. Wow, I never thought about that but it’s so true! I do not want to live in fear anymore and I choose today to quit living in fear! It is my prayer that God will help me with that because this is not an easy thing to do and I desire with all of my heart to trust in Him more.
This evening I had a Skype call with my Mom. Even though we talked yesterday it was great to talk to her again today because there were some things that I wanted to talk to her today that I couldn’t tell her yesterday when Andreea was here. I told my Mom about my week and more about how my time went while Andreea was here.
I am grateful my Mom let me use her as a “sounding board” and vent a little because I guess I just needed to share some things with someone. I told my Mom that I really enjoyed my time with Andreea this past weekend but sometimes for me it was difficult to be with her because I feel like she doesn’t give me much space and I feel like she smothers me at times. What I mean is often she likes to give me kisses, hugs and quite often wants to be by my side. I think it’s sweet but sometimes I think it’s way too much, I feel like I’m being smothered and don’t feel she gives me much space.
My Mom told me that it’s probably because she wants to be with me, loves me and just wants attention. I also spoke to Tabita on facebook about this too and she told me that she is craving love and attention because she doesn’t get it much. I also told my Mom that Andreea often acts a lot younger than her age and I feel like she can be demanding at times. My Mom told me that I should just continue to mentor her and be there for her. I also told Tabita this and she told me that she has a mild delayed mental handicap so that cleared it up a bit for me why she acts the way she does at times.
I never expected to move to Oradea and get into a mentoring relationship with a young orphan girl but obviously God knew. For me it is not always easy especially with the language barrier. Sometimes I feel so inadequate to be a mentor because I really don’t have any experience in this area. I think though I need more of God’s love, compassion and wisdom in how to mentor Andreea. I would really appreciate your prayers for how I can be a better mentor to Andreea. Thanks!