Here are a couple of things that I posted on my facebook page today:
“I need you Lord, more than yesterday, more than words can say. I need your Lord.”
“Faith in a living God, active God moves mountains.”
Today I decided to fast and pray breakfast and lunch. My heart felt heavy about what happened yesterday. I really wanted to seek God about it. I tried to be still in God’s presence and listen to Him but I felt distracted by Minnie my cat running around and emotionally I just felt very broken. I also kept beating myself up over it all day which I don’t think is good either.
This evening I went to Sue’s place for her last craft day with a couple of the older orphan girls. I thought it might be a good idea to get out because I was at home all day however I only ended up going for less than an hour because emotionally I didn’t do well to be there and socialize with people. Sue understood. She gave me a hug and then I returned home.
In the evening I spoke to my Mom on the phone for around an hour. My parents and my brother just got back from the Kingdom Bound festival at Darien Lake in New York so I wanted to see how it went and also tell my Mom what happened yesterday. It was good to hear how the festival went. I wish I was able to go. This year it was the 25th anniversary. My Mom tried to encouraged me and give me some advice but my spirit felt so low. Either way it was great to talk to her.