Today I stayed home again. I spent time with God and did some other things. My heart was just longing to be with the kids that I love and care about so much. It is real difficult beyond what I could put into words to not be able to be with them right now. I’m sorry I cannot share any details here why I cannot be with the kids right now. I would really, really appreciate your continual prayers that God would speak to me during this hard time.
In the evening I went to the Christian cafe to say good-bye to our summer interns and also Sue and her two friends Ali and Chelsea. When I walked into the room where everyone was I was so surprised to see a lot more people there than I expected there to be! Almost all of the Pathway to Joy’s staff were there, their wives and a couple of other people that I knew.
It was definitely a nice surprise to see everyone again but because my heart has
been heavy the last few days it showed on my face. I am a person that loves to smile and laugh but when I go through a hard time it definitely shows on my face. I think sometimes people can read my face like a book!
Tabita who is one of the coordinators for the orphan mentoring project said something to me that was really sweet. She said “look Andrea, these are all the people that care about you”. She was right. As I looked around I felt very grateful to be surrounded by people who do care for me. It was so great to have the opportunity to connect with everyone for an hour or so. Just being with them cheered me up and I even smiled again too! I am thankful for everyone’s encouragement too.
It was such a blessing to be able to also say good-bye to our summer interns today before they return to the States. I am so thankful for all of our summer interns that came to Romania this summer. It was so great to meet them, serve with them and I will definitely miss them! I hope they will come back to Romania because they all have such incredible hearts both for God and also for the kids here!
This evening I also spent some time journaling and reflecting again on what God has been teaching me during this time. I received some advice from a couple of my friends that I thought was helpful. My friend Maria wrote this on my facebook page “Write your dreams in pencil, let God erase the parts he wants to and rewrite them with the better ones”. I thought that was good idea so I think I’m going to do that.
I also got some good advice from my friend Sorina that I thought was very helpful. Here are some things she wrote in her e-mail that I thought might be helpful for other people to read too:
– We all go through difficult times, and the question is: “Do we become “bitter” or “better” out of such experiences?”
– We will learn for as long as we live. Learning (although painful at times) brings growth. The Israelites spent 40 years, on an otherwise 11 day journey, until they learned what God wanted to teach them.
– Don’t get stuck on details, just look at the big picture.
– Try not to allow yourself to get offended and try not to dwell over your broken heart,
but look up at God and thank Him for how far you have come and all the things He allowed you to learn.
– Our enemy, the devil wants us to rely on (and get guided by) our feelings while God wants us to rely on Him and walk in faith.
– When you feel hurt (for whatever reason may be) recite (aloud) scripture of faith. The spoken word has great power and makes the devil flee from us.
– Make the word of God personal.
– Look at scripture verses that are meaningful to you in the particular situation you are in, write them down and recite them, so that your faith can be built up and the devil will not gain any ground by making you feel hurt or insecure.
– Always remember that we cannot let ourselves be guided by our feeling but by the Holy Spirit and the word of God.