“Faith is deliberate confidence in the character of God whose ways you may not understand at the time.” – Oswald Chambers
“Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, “This is the way; walk in it.” – Isaiah 30:21
“I will lead the blind by ways they have not known, along unfamiliar paths I will guide them; I will turn the darkness into light before them and make the rough places smooth. These are the things I will do; I will not forsake them.” – Isaiah 42:16
I love this quote from Oswald Chambers and also these scripture verses from Isaiah because I feel in my heart this is exactly where I am at right now in this transition that God has brought me into. I need to be reminded during this time that faith is the deliberate confidence in the character of God whose ways I may not understand at the time and I just need to keep following God’s voice wherever He leads me even when I feel like I am walking forward “blindly” and not knowing or understanding exactly where I am going. I just need to remind myself that God knows my future and this is enough because Jesus is the Alpha and the Omega. He is the beginning and the end and He holds my future in His hands.
I honestly always thought I’d be living and serving God in Romania indefinitely but over the last few months God has spoken to me a lot and brought a lot of confirmation to my heart that He is calling me to serve Him in the nations and not just in Romania. God gave one of the girls in my small group when I was in Amsterdam on April 19, 2016 a prophetic picture of an eagle flying me to the nations, the eagle represented God and I was not alone on the eagle but my cat was also with me as well. Wow, what a personal God that we have that He truly does know us and see all the details of our hearts and our desires. God gave me my cat in June 2009 and I always felt in my heart that if I ever leave Romania that I would like to take my cat with me if it would be possible.
One of the girls in my Shine Seminar class when I was in Amsterdam on May 2, 2016
received a prophetic picture from God when she prayed for me in our bedroom that evening. God showed her a world map and she saw God remove one pin from a country and place it onto another country. These are two very specific pictures that God gave me of how He spoke to me that He is calling me to serve Him in the nations but this is not all of it because He spoke to my heart at other times over the last few months too that it is time to step out once again into the unknown and trust in Him with my future that He has for me.
When I was in Albania it was the first DTS outreach that I staffed and it was at that time God gave me two prophetic pictures when a DTS speaker prayed for me when I was there with my team (the Durres base ran a DTS the same time we were there). The first picture God gave me was of me walking on shrubs. People did not understand why I was walking
on shrubs and not on the ground like we normally walk on the side walk or the pavement however I just kept following God where He was leading me even though I did not completely understand the path that I was on.
The second picture the DTS speaker received for me was I sat at a table with girls who have been trafficked and every girl at the table had a bowl of soup in front of them. I encouraged them to eat their soup because it was good and delicious and then when they finished eating their soup there was a mirror at the bottom of their bowls so then I encouraged them to look at themselves because they are so beautiful and valuable in God’s eyes.
When I heard this tears came to my eyes because it was like I saw it as he told me and this was the very first specific prophetic word/ picture I have received from God about ministering to girls who are at risk, who are vulnerable and have been trafficked which was in March 2015. God has also given me two specific prophetic words about Esther (February 2015 and April 2016) and how He is going to use me to help people break free from the orphan spirit, come into their destinies and for them to know their identities as sons and daughters of God.
The week after I came back to Romania after the Shine Seminar and the YWAM Central European conference I was able to meet with my current YWAM base leaders where I have been serving the last 3 years here in Târgu Mureş. I was extremely grateful for the opportunity they gave me to be able to meet with them and also how they took time to listen to me as I shared with them how God has been speaking to me lately and confirming many things in my heart about the upcoming season that He is leading me as a missionary. My heart is filled with so much gratitude to have base leaders who are so supportive of me in what God has called me to do. I felt so encouraged how they really encouraged me not to be afraid to step out and to start reaching out to YWAM bases that have a similar vision that God has put on my life.
When I was in Amsterdam for the Shine Seminar two different people recommended that I look into contacting the YWAM LA base which is located in Los Angeles, California. They recommended that I contact them because one of their DTS schools has a focus on Justice and also a specific focus on human trafficking and they also go on outreach trips to Cambodia as well which is the nation that God actually began my whole journey on human trafficking back in the fall of 2014.
I began to pray about it from time to time when I was in Amsterdam and began to start asking God for specific confirmation if this is His will. When I was at the YWAM Central European conference in Vajta, Hungary Alma from Albania prayed for me on May 25th that God will show me specific “sign posts” of where God is leading me to go next. I also remember the day before that at the conference I saw a world map there outside of the chapel that had these pins that were on different countries. I remember when I stared at it God spoke to me and asked me “Do you trust in me to remove the pin to another place that I’m calling you to?”
I honestly never thought or imaged myself living in the United States before but now it seems like God is making it clearer that this is where He is calling me to serve Him next. My Mom is American and I was able to get my dual citizenship before I turned 18 years old but it honestly never really crossed my mind that I might possibility live and serve in the United States for a season in my life. Over the last few months I have received numerous confirmations and “sign posts” from God of how He is directing me to serve with the YWAM base in LA (Los Angeles, California) and in fact the Lord has sometimes given me crystal clear confirmations almost every day to the point of it being really obvious that it is God who is directing me to serve there and not me.
The day after I met with my current base leaders which was on June 3rd, I decided to send an e-mail to the YWAM LA base. I actually did send them an e-mail when I was in Amsterdam for the Shine Seminar but for some reason I didn’t hear back from them however God spoke to me a couple of times when I was there that I will know the next step in His timing and not mine.
On Monday June 6th I received a reply back from the base. Their response was not something I had expected because the girl who wrote to me told me that it not so common for them to accept staff who have not been with them before and they typically ask applicants who have never done any sort of school at their base to do a secondary school with them before they accept potential staff.
To be quite honest I was not thinking of doing another secondary school right after I completed the Shine Seminar however when I took a look at the YWAM LA secondary schools they offer at their base one of them suck out to me right away which is their school on leadership and ministry development. I took a look at the list of the teaching topics for the course I thought to myself this is exactly what I need to continue to go forward in what God has called me to do. Some of the teaching topics in this course are on pioneering ministry, Biblical counseling, personal development and growth and others.
I decided to speak to Florin who is my current base leader about it the following week at the base. He told me this maybe exactly what I need right now and he really recommended me to seriously pray about it to consider to do it because it will really help me with developing my leadership skills and personal development. I prayed about it and I really felt peace from God that this is what He is leading me to do next so I decided to contact the base to let them know.
On Friday June 17th I was able to complete all of my part for the application and I sent it in that day. I am very grateful that I was able to meet with my family doctor the previous day for my medical report and I was also able to meet with my pastor the same day to talk to him about it and ask him if he could do my reference as well. I am also very thankful that my current base leader is able to do my DTS evaluation as well. Now I am just waiting in faith of what their response is and trusting in God that if it is His will for me to go to the school in September that He will open up the doors for this next step.
As of right now I am sensing strongly in my heart that God wants me to get more training in the area of leadership development and to get some experience to staff with a Justice and Human Trafficking focus DTS ministry. God has also put a desire on my heart to see a Justice and a Human Trafficking focus DTS to be somehow pioneered in the Central Europe region as well because currently there are no YWAM bases that have any DTS on this focus which really breaks my heart because there are a lot of girls who are trafficked from the Central European region into Western Europe. God has continued to speak my heart about the nation of Cambodia as well especially to minister to the younger teenage girls who are trafficked and the families who are affected by this injustice issue.
God has also spoken to me a lot of how He is calling me to the nations this was confirmed a lot during my time when I was in Amsterdam when I was there for the Shine Seminar (April 7th – May 21st). I am not exactly sure of what this means or looks like but I really desire with all of my heart to be God’s vessel and instrument for Him to use me to help bring His love, hope and light into the places that are spiritually dark and to also help bring freedom to those who are captive and trapped in the injustice of human trafficking. I truly believe in my heart that God is longing to bring His sons and His daughters into true freedom as it says in Isaiah 61:1-8a.
Next Wednesday at 6:00pm (June 29th) I will be taking a bus from Târgu Mureş, Romania to Budapest, Hungary. I have a flight with Air Canada on June 30th at 12:00pm from the Budapest airport and I will arrive in Toronto at 3:40pm. This will be my very first time to travel with Minnie my cat so that will definitely be an adventure itself. I will be in Canada for the summer months and by faith I’ll be go to the YWAM LA base in September for their fall course on leadership and ministry development (September 24th – December 17th). Then I’ll be home for Christmas and in January we’ll see where God will take me next for this new season of stepping into bringing freedom to people and fighting against the injustice issue of human trafficking.
My heart is filled with a lot of excitement, anticipation and expectancy of what God is going to do in this upcoming season. At the same time my heart is still struggling with the fear of the unknown however I’m really trying to learn moment by moment in this transition time to continue to let go and surrender everything to God especially any fears, anxieties, worries and questions that I may have for my future.
I would like to ask for your continual prayer covering over me especially at this time of transition that God will help me to continue to walk through it with His grace and His Father’s love at this time.
Here Are Some Specific Prayer Requests:
- I would like to ask for your prayers that all of the details that still need to be taken care of before I leave for Canada will be taken care of (the most urgent need right now is getting my cat carrier on time that I ordered from Amazon.uk at the beginning of this month) before I leave next Wednesday.
- Please pray that my trip to Budapest and to Canada will go smoothly especially for my cat Minnie because it will be very new adventure for the both of us so we could definitely use your prayers that it will not be a stressful time for us during this trip including the bus ride, going through security at the airport, my long flight and everything will be fine with the customs at the Toronto airport when we arrive in Canada.
- When I’ll be in Canada I will stay at my Mom’s house. My Mom also has a cat so I would like to ask for your prayers that our cats will get along with each other well and the introduction time will go really well between them when I will arrive with my cat next Thursday.
- Please pray that God will fill me with His peace as I wait for my acceptance to the leadership and ministry development school for the fall and also for His provision (the tuition is $3,100 USD).
- Please pray that my summer will be a very restful time but it will also be a very fruitful and effective time to connect with my family, friends and supporters. Please pray that it will also be a time that God will bring new supporters into my support team as well.
- Last but not least please keep me in your prayers that during this transition time I will continue to keep my eyes focus on Jesus, it will be a time of not only preparation for the next upcoming season in my life as a missionary but it will also be a real growing time in my relationship with the Lord as well.
I would like to thank-you for all of your prayers and encouragement that you have given to me. It really means a lot to me beyond what I could possibility put into words to know that there are people who are keeping me in their prayers and also encourage me from time to time. I am so very thankful that God has given me so many people to surround me with their love and support which is definitely a blessing from Him. Thank-you again for all of your prayers throughout the years I have served God in Romania and I would like to say thank-you from the bottom of my heart for your continual prayers. Many blessings to you!